I love You God! because You fill me with joy and love and teach us all to love our neighbours - although all right this is not Being Done rn it's a work in progress for me! but still, and Lord you forgive and teach and I'm such a bad person but slowly you've been making me better and better. please keep making me a better person so I can live to glorify Your name (:

Lord you are great and created the world and tea plants rhinos obama porcelain plaster granite cheese oranges gravity and velvet and You take care of small things! that is sufficient for all of us.

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I still feel the same (that means there isn't a bubble of 16dom surrounding me) but thanks for everything everyone :)

From a Twilight fan blog:

"Reason Twilight is better (than Harry Potter): Cause it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO romantic when Edward watches Bella sleep, and cook, and take showers. I MEAN COME ON?! WHY NOT LOVE IT?"

pedophile much? DDD:

If obsessive stalker vampires what's 'romantic' these days, I'm not surprised that the world will end in 2012.

this (original) post will be done somewhere else. 

school's...actually quite relaxing. I'm quite happy to be sec 4 I think it's not as stressful as sec 3 for some reason! I need to talk to some people but they're not online gah :( 

"Prissy: I think my best friend would want me to continue supplying her with gossip , to be a good friend to her, and to be there in times of need. I know she would be really happy if I got a boyfriend but I will never get one, so yay!"

and 

"My goal is to get an A1 in Math CA1 since last year it was a B4; 

I will know I've reached my goal because: my report book will say so, duh! :D"

annnnd

"To reach my goal I will do these three things:

1. Stop falling asleep during Mrs. Chang's lessons.
2. Stop falling asleep during tuition
3. Stop thinking about Kuch Kuch Hota Hai and how cute Shahrukh Khan is during tuition."

- Excerpts from Goal Setting, 5th January 2010

John Barrowman is gay.

Simon Amstell is gay.

Daniel Boys is gay.

Matthew Cutler is (rumoured and possibly true) gay.

Ian Waite is (rumoured to be) gay.

WHY ARE ALL THE GOOD LOOKING MEN GAY?

This is a disaster of national proportions.


/edit: I was obviously in a state of shock and horror when this was written. But the post is too funny to delete, now that I look at it. :P

Today was fun! Ms. Teng allowed free seating so it was cool, and we got SANDY TAN as bio teacher omg awesome heh and Ms. Khoo as LD and Geog!

Sec 4 is going to be good. Like I told Darion, last year was all about meeting new people. This year, it's going to be about picking up the pieces. :) WISH ME LUCK HAHA! 

Met Pris and Kenneth today FUN :D ate at Xin Wang which needed a lot of soy sauce to supplement, and Starbucks where I saw prissy LICK THE CREAM OFF HER COFFEE THINGY very weirdly. We tried to piss off Kenneth and succeeded :D Guess how?

Hint: Read between this sentence: The pen is blue.

Or, this haiku that I made last year:

( inappropriate for young minds. )

Oh gosh and now I've realised I may have taken more than I can swallow in terms of commitments HOPE NOT! 

So it's 2010! Wow. 2009 kind of came and went in a whirlwind of bad Channel 5 countdown songs - so because of the bad vibes that came from there mother and I were like, huh oh it's 2010? okay. Stone. Oh happy new year! Yada yada yada. But it was another year, things happened - Looking back, I'd like to say that it was a great year for me. In retrospect it actually wasn't the best, but you can't have everything. In my mind I'm just going to kinda sift out any and all of the bad stuff that happened, and remember the good things - an MSG of 2.16 (well that was only borderline satisfactory, but I'm not complaining; I'll do better this year!), average of 72 (hey that's actually pretty good okay), I got to know the Lord better, more friends, DSLR :D :D :D, great trips, and I grew taller! That's not even all (:

But at the same time I'm glad '09 is over. I'll be a lot better this year! I want to be a better Huiran. So I will be (: Look forward to me! Coming soon, in a 413 near you (: In a couple of days reality will come crashing down on me and all the homework's gonna start piling up but for now I think I'll relax where I can, watch High School Musical over and over again, talk to Sec 4s and realize - crap, I'm Sec 4.

Anyhowz today I went to ECP with my mom and we had a lot of fun but now I'm burnt as a cherry tomato and I look funny. Ah well (:

Love you all, hope you have a great year to come!

so guys, are we going to call 2010 "twenty-ten" or "two thousand and ten"? i'm going with twenty-ten, it sounds super-futuristic and cool and besides two thousand and ten is too long. when i gotta say 2010 i just can't be bothered to type out two thous

DAR is over! this is one of the finest comics on the web, despite its liberal use of humour derived from bodily functions. please do check it out, let's make erika moen absolutely befuddled as to why her site is getting more hits after it's all over. i've also been reading dead winter lately and it's pretty good, the art starts out really rough but tightens up tremendously a couple hundred pages in. like it was drawn with a mouse before, and now it's drawn with a tablet. and the sense of form and style is always present so that is definitely good. best of all, it's about zombies. 

zombies.

i realised that i don't really want to talk about all the shit that's been going on! so i shan't.

a quote from thoreau's walden

I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion.

twenty ten! THE FUTURE!

An hour early.

Somehow whatever I write seems stilted and awkward, so I won't ramble on too much.
But thank you, everyone, for being part of my life this year. There've been ups and downs (and you always remember the downs more than the ups) but through all of that I've grown so, so much - yet I still have so much more to go.
So here's hoping that 2010 will be even better. Here's hoping for happy chapters of our lives.

I love you!

And I haven't been updating lately, but I got a diary so I'll probably ignore this for a while.
Mmhmm looking forward to Saturday and Monday!

<3

and wenxian and wig are in my room :D or rather, wig is showering (sexy, eh?) and wen is reading gossip on 8 Days and after this we're going to watch Scooby Doo and the Witch's Ghost! 2009's going to be over, and I've gotta say, THANK GOD! YAY <3 

2009 has been a plus/minus year with much of both. I've finally found ''best friends'' after vowing that I'd never have one again for so long, and grades were mostly okay. Math was a minus for the most part but EOYs really made me believe that I can do maths again! I've also discovered this love for Shakespeare and classic works! King Lear was and will always be one of the best plays ever written, and The Great Gatsby is one of the most powerful books of the 20th century (much better than To Kill A Mockingbird, though some might disagree)! 

Uhhh not much to say now, but okay once again, thank you Prissy, Lueychi, Kenneth, Darion, Lauren, Crystal, Li Chen, Wig, Jingyi, Wenxian, Huiran, Esther, Teck, Charis, Jean, Celine, Hyo, and everyone else for making this year, uh, this year haha! 

Oh, and thanks 314 for being a great class, I'm definitely looking forward to 2010 with you guys! Last year in Nanyang, better make the most of it!  See you guys all on the 4th of January! 

From exileontransgression.wordpress.com a.k.a. lueychi which is so true: 

I rather talk to people outside of school than anyone from school; because it’s human to do so. It’s almost a phobia that what I tell these people would make them think of me as if I’m a total bastard, loser, asshole, ignorant idiot but it’s part of every person that exists; almost like a test of self-control and restrain. If you are good at dealing with it, so be it. Almost being image-conscious.

I like the idea that I can talk to people outside the regular social circle, where the person is totally disconnected from all the things you are worried about. It sometimes redefines friendship so much; the ability to share without the fear of being judged by another person. I keep asking questions and it just gets irritating and gets me more wear of life. It’s almost a form of justification that I can ignore anything that is practical because afterall, I am going to die.

I am probably possessing not one of the best mindsets around, the year is going to end, my first conscious decade in the 21st century, and I don’t really know what I want nor do I care, only to be constantly disturbed by the concept that school is going to start and I have to be grounded back into reality someday or another; that I have to start to accept things. I want to stay in the grey area of awareness and realism, find that balance and things will all work out. But obviously that isn’t going to happen, so I shall just go Hahahaha in all situations where I don’t know what to say and then feel shitty guilty over what happened and my inaction.

I am scared of failing too! So ironic. I don’t want to work, but I don’t want to die either, I want instant results. I have reasons to work, but I simply don’t do it because of obstacles.
I suxx0r and shall em0xz and read blogsecret.tumblr.com to make myself feel better perhaps.

*snigger at pathetic self*

Two passengers, both women.

One was clearly younger than the other. I could tell from their skin.

The younger one appeared in her twenties. Smooth, clear skin with just a light touch of make-up. She would easily be considered pretty, if not beautiful.

The other woman was much, much older. Hair dyed brown but not quite covering all that silver-grey. Her skin tanned and wrinkled. Was she considered pretty or beautiful when younger?

And it occurred to me:

Some people might be born beautiful or handsome. Those who are not can always achieve some measure of beauty through cosmetics and science. But no matter what, the passing of time ultimately robs skin and muscle of the potential to appear beautiful.

Our minds are a different matter though.

The possibility always exists that minds will become more beautiful with age.